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When I met him, he was a scrawny boy with blonde hair and a Cheshire cat grin. We dated and broke up within the same month. Years passed when we reunited as friends hanging out at the local townie bar. He pulled me aside and apologized for his actions all those years ago. In the coming years, we saw less of each other. Our lives taking different directions. Like ebbs and flows, we reconnected and drifted away. He passed away just a few weeks ago. Occupational cancer, they sai

Rage still bubbles beneath the surface. It’s no longer the volcano threatening to spew molten lava, but rather a hot spring searing in a sippy cup. Miraculously, the lid is tightly sealed without being warped. In its new container, neither his name nor image hold me hostage. Now, it’s a matter of accepting my role in his game. I had been hurt when I met him. Three-and-a-half years removed from divorce and fourteen months from my dad’s death. I had not been my usual self. He l

I sit, legs stretched and snuggled beneath two cozy blankets on my new-to-me oversized gray couch. A wood fire blazes before me. The scenario is reminiscent of many other evenings, but somehow tonight is different. I know it’s a supposed relevant occasion. The end of a 365-day cycle. Another rotation around the sun is complete. If it were other years, I’d be with friends. Or, scrapbooking alone in another space while my someone special played video games in the living room. H

Detachment came, but not neatly or with a bow as I had craved. I expected it in early October when the third closing cleared and funds were dispersed. But it didn't happen. Then, when the first bonfires I built ignited and blazed in the fireplace, I was sure it would come. It didn't. Lastly, when the house thermostat dropped below sixty degrees and no one complained, I was convinced this was it. It wasn't. Frankly, his words haunted me. Following his arrest, he nonchalantly s

I look out to the front yard and sigh. It’s June. Little has changed. My lawn looks as it did last autumn, winter, and early spring. Two...

“Congratulations, Brandy,” he says, shaking my hand. “You have three days to change your mind, but no one ever does.” Several business...

“Do you still love me?” I know the answer. Intellectually, emotionally, psychologically, genuinely, and even matter-of-factly. Yet, he...

Curiosity. That’s what he said. He had long ago accepted his issues and succumbed to defeat. Despite begging, pleading, and continuous...

Two things can be true at the same time if … I hated geometry language then and I certainly don’t understand it now. Two things can be...

I sit in a disorderly home recognizing the past ten weeks are a real-life sucker punch to the throat. I gasp as I look around at the mess...

The storm door unexpectedly opens. He  strolls in, holding his wallet, car keys, and cell phone. He's dressed as though he had just come...

The captain’s very surreal statement echoes in my mind. Since he uttered the words at the witching hour on Sunday morning outside in the...

To know him  is to walk outside in the hot summer sun with sunblock, a hat, and shades, and come back with a blistering burn. Everywhere....

Like a teenager excited about her first crush, boyfriend, or love, I felt the tingles, inexplicable excitement, and simple joy at being...

Fuck it. My fingertips two-step along the keyboard faster than my inner self can keep up. Fundamentally, it feels wrong, but I remind...

Like a fish flopping on dry ground with a hook dangling from its mouth, I feel trapped, breathless. When the knife comes down slitting it...

She gallops down the unpaved driveway, zigzagging from side to side. Frequently, she disappears into the tall flora growing along its...

“So, what do I call you? What should I call you? What’s your middle name?” “Tin-Yu,” he answered. “Yeah, I’m not going to remember that....

Nearly nine years ago on a cold winter day, we sat in a booth at a newly-opened Mongolian barbecue restaurant near my hometown. It was a...

I mosey out of bed, grateful to be away from fits of sleep. I had tossed, turned, and spasmed, unable to find a restful temperature. The...