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My blog is a first-person look into my life experiences. It includes introspective views of relationships, arguments, heartbreak, and death. Some are funny. Others relive memories. Posts are also uploaded to Facebook.
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“Talk, touch, kiss, bend, this one’s just like all the others; And I know all too well that I won’t beat the waters”
She gallops down the unpaved driveway, zigzagging from side to side. Frequently, she disappears into the tall flora growing along its...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Aug 13 min read
"Yeah, for a dreamer, I just close my eyes and it's all blank; I have you to thank, yeah"
“So, what do I call you? What should I call you? What’s your middle name?” “Tin-Yu,” he answered. “Yeah, I’m not going to remember that....
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 262 min read
“I think I've seen this film before; And I didn't like the ending; You're not my homeland anymore; So what am I defendin' now?”
Nearly nine years ago on a cold winter day, we sat in a booth at a newly-opened Mongolian barbecue restaurant near my hometown. It was a...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 212 min read
“It's so unreal, didn't look out below; Watch the time go right out the window”
I mosey out of bed, grateful to be away from fits of sleep. I had tossed, turned, and spasmed, unable to find a restful temperature. The...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 173 min read
“So before you go; Was there something I coulda said to make your heart beat better?”
I stare out at the beauty of our backyard, listening to mainstream pop radio. Serene and simple. A bonfire pit is ready for a lit match....
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 163 min read
"Once upon a time I was falling in love; Now I'm only falling apart; There's nothing I can do; A total eclipse of the heart"
I stand, nervously, outside the home we share. It's dark. A bright moon illuminates the white siding. I stare at the previously-broken...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 123 min read
"I don't know why, I don't know why; We need to break so hard"
I am not okay. All I want is for him to hold me and tell me it’s OK and it will be OK. I want him to tell me he loves me. Really,...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 101 min read
“I've been tryna carry on; Down this road I'm on; Just don't look down, don't look down”
Shattered. I stare at a blank screen only able to type one word, “shattered.” Peter Chang mugshot As I look at the spelling, I expect the...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jun 281 min read
“My feet have wandered off without me; I haven't seen the pair of them for years; Do they know I went and left the country? When I call in the night do they hear?”
“Boston?” I ask, breathless. It sounds more like “AwwwwSTIN.” “Excuse me? I can’t understand you,” she says, almost dismissing me, with...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Mar 85 min read
“One night in Bangkok and the world's your oyster; The bars are temples but their pearls ain't free”
Five airports and 30 hours of travel, including 120 minutes of ridiculous rush hour traffic on a Tuesday morning, and here I stand,...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Feb 93 min read
"God, I wish somebody would've told me when I was younger,That all bodies aren't the same"
Two Lindt-like truffle chocolates. I add their calories to the online counter. I didn’t account for them the night before when I planned...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Feb 82 min read
"These days are going to fast; These days keep holding me back; These days are going off track; But I can't seem to find a way to my peace of mind"
My fingertips move frantically across the keyboard trying to remember all that has happened over the summer. I race against seconds,...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 14, 20242 min read
“Like a month to a flame, burned by the fire”
The end. Simple. Plain and without pomp and circumstance. The years of misunderstanding, done. The inflated cruelty, over. But there’s no...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Apr 27, 20243 min read
“Please stay; I want you, I need you, oh God; Don't take; These beautiful things that I've got.”
“Piece by piece, I fell far from the tree; I will never leave her like you left me; And she will never have to wonder her worth, because...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Apr 7, 20243 min read
"When you're weary, feeling small, when tears are in your eyes, I'll dry them all, I'm on your side"
All day, I watch the clock with a nervous excitement. As the hours count down, my eyes are drawn to the black digital screen on my wrist...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Mar 30, 20243 min read
“She's got a smile that heals me; I don't know why it is; But I have to laugh when she reveals me”
This is it, the definition of nirvana. I sit here and stare into her beautiful brown eyes. There’s no where else I want to be. I touch...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jan 21, 20244 min read
"On the road again; I just can't wait to get on the road again"
Two days earlier, we were warned of the driving schedule and events that awaited us. Their dire words resembled an omen. We didn’t...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Dec 3, 20235 min read
"I've traveled all this way for something; Now, take it in but don't look down"
“Ow,” she loudly whimpers. Two bailiffs hold her arms behind her back and snap handcuffs into place. The courtroom remains silent as I...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Dec 2, 20234 min read
“Like a bridge over troubled water, I will ease your mind”
I stare aimlessly out the window. Children laugh and play behind cinder block walls decorated with colorful numbers, letters, and simple...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 10, 20232 min read
“The bright blessed day; The dark sacred night; And I think to myself; What a wonderful world”
Years ago, I sat in a sterile dental patient chair in an upscale, suburban Connecticut town as the dentist described the current status...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 10, 20232 min read
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