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My blog is a first-person look into my life experiences. It includes introspective views of relationships, arguments, heartbreak, and death. Some are funny. Others relive memories. Posts are also uploaded to Facebook.
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"It's our problem-free philosophy; Hakuna Matata"
Son of a … My eyes blink open. Darkness and the silence of night greet me. Nah, I’m fine. I close my eyes and instantaneously retreat to...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 2, 20233 min read
"Then she lit up a candle; And she showed me the way"
Is this really it? Or, is this how we die? We approach the hotel. The two-lane main road is dark, quiet, and slick with recent rains. A...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Aug 13, 20234 min read
"Pressure; Pushing down on me"
He tries to direct me, finagling an old-fashioned paper map with limited information. It’s meant for tourists in downtown, not foreigners...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 16, 20234 min read
“Welcome to the jungle, we got fun and games; We got everything you want, honey, we know the names”
The room is overwhelmingly bright, plain, and exceptionally grand in size. Modern white counters lighted in the branding colors of...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 16, 20235 min read
“Since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on, yeah, yeah."
I feel like a used sponge walking in the humidity of a New England summer day. My eyebrows fail me as sweat beads drop from my forehead...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jul 15, 20232 min read
“Every time you come around, you know I can't say no"
Metal spatulas clap against the flat stainless-steel surface. Forks clank against the red plastic plates. Children cry. Hushed...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Jun 25, 20234 min read
“I'm unstoppable; I'm a Porsche with no brakes”
Opening the desk drawer, the task seems simple enough: grab the newest checkbook, pay the medical bill. Except, it’s not where I expect...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Apr 23, 20235 min read
“You’ve got opinions, man, we’re all entitled to them, but I never asked”
I sit in an arm chair in the exquisite, yet understated, formal living room of an inn. My attention is focused on the stemless glass of...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Mar 12, 20234 min read
"Tell me something good that I don't know'; Cause this world's been kicking my behind"
He steps into our house. Like his skin tone, his uniform is dark, sharp, and perfectly creased on particular folds. A rectangular object...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Feb 20, 20233 min read
"Like a floating ball that's bound to break; Snap my psyche like a twig"
“Just a second. This dude looks like someone I know. I want to get a picture of him. He needs to know he has a doppleganger out there,” I...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Feb 19, 20232 min read
“You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your pain; And now I cry in the middle of the night"
Imagine standing in the privacy of your own home. Alone and naked. Maybe you’re in the bedroom putting clothes away or looking in your...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Feb 12, 20233 min read
“And now you've given me, given me; Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams”
We walk through the lanes of Home Depot, still unable to comprehend the shit show that has engulfed our life. Following the officer’s...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Feb 11, 20232 min read
“You wanted more. More than I could bear. More than I could offer. For a love that isn’t there.”
Violated is not the word. Crippling? Raw? Worthless? Exposed? Condemned? Maybe. I crouch in front of a pile clothes – underwear, socks,...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Feb 5, 20233 min read
"You could be my someone, you could be my scene."
My fingertips graze the green felt. I bend over, contorting myself into a yoga pose of sorts to be at eye level with the cue ball. A pool...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Nov 13, 20223 min read
“Well, I know what's right; I got just one life"
She had a stressful day, complete with an ill-equipped goodbye and struggles to remain professional while facing certain grief. She...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Oct 16, 20222 min read
Part three: “I'm here without you, baby; But you're still on my lonely mind"
I vigorously rub the eyelid of my now red right eyeball. Peeling back the lids, I search for the debris and find nothing. The cycle...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Oct 8, 20222 min read
"Everybody stares as she goes by'; Cause they can see the flame that's in her eyes"
The island winds thump across the barren land. Beautiful blue skies and greenery below trick the eye. We stand outside of our coach tour...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 17, 20223 min read
Part two: “Bittersweet memories, that is all I'm taking with me"
“I love you, my sweet baby boy. Mama loves you.” I kiss him. He licks me back on the lips and stares at me as if to say, “Duh, Mama.” I...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 11, 20224 min read
“The moon is full, my arms are empty; All night long, I've pleaded and cried”
The tears come hard and fast. I gasp for breath. My insides ache like cramps and I twist into a fetal position. Two small dark beings...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 10, 20223 min read
"Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile; the precious moments are all lost in the tide"
I sit in front of my laptop screen staring at a black and white grainy picture of him. Wire-framed glasses, pudgy cheeks, slicked back...
Brandice J. O'Brien
Sep 3, 20223 min read
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